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Are You Too Good To Be Mentioned?!

Who gave men the disciplinal right to try to demand certain things from women???

From “curfews” to budgeting (but you can’t tell them to budget their own money oh no), to cooking & cleaning to many more but my most recent fav….

Telling you NOT to blog about them!!!

Especially when they don’t even READ your blog!!

 

About a month ago I subbed this gov lady in my post cuz her man was pretending to be my man and she “so called researched” and found my blog as a connection to him. Hmm how? If his name isn’t tagged in my posts and the only way you do that is if you have his first and last name which you must have got from ya fake lyin’ ass man and searched fb to get to me as well…… My man found out cuz it was his best friend’s brother…his bestie was talkin’ so much shit about my blog and his ass don’t read it either!

Long story short, my bf was all “don’t talk about me” Continue reading

If You Want Certain Privileges…..Where The Ring At?!!

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When is there a time to be home when u ARE NOT MARRIED?

11PM?

12AM?

Men seem to always want to tell women when to be home and when to do other things BUT when it comes to them, they want freedom to do as they please?!!

GTFOH!

For those that don’t know the abbreviation, it’s Get The Fuck Outta Here!

They call being home at 11pm a safety reason.

IS IT??

So then you should be home too.

When I used to go out with my friends I would come home at 1am from the bars.

I was never too drunk to get home.

But back to the matter at hand…..

Where’s my ring?

2nd man that wants marriage privileges but no ring.

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Hey Baby! What’s Your Sign??

Since I just posted about seeing the moon, why not post this post about ….

Horoscopes! 

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I used to be a HUGE fan of horoscopes! Everything you needed to know, you could have asked me…..

I was like….. a horoscope guru haha

Keyword: Was

Now I kind of just live life normal hehe

I still believe in some parts like characteristics are true per each sign, but I don’t follow it like I used to

I had Yahoo horoscope sent to me all the time and I checked love, friendship and finance all the time

For a while I had the horoscope app on my phone.

I told you I was serious about it!

Don’t judge me!

Besides,

I KNOOOOWWWW I’m not the only one!  Continue reading

The Thirst is Real!!

So let me tell y’all….

I’ve experienced my fair share of women testing my patience when it comes to my relationship.

There was one scenario about 3 months ago that I had to hold everything within me to stay mature!

Remember how I told y’a’ll that I am not ratchet? So yeah I had to keep that up for the moment and assess the situation before I became a different person….

Anyways let me rant to you!

My babe and I went to Friday’s as we always do before seeing a movie at the theater across the street from it.

He went to get the movie tickets so I made his order for him.

I told this heffa of a waitress his order and told her THAT IS IT! Of course with my order.

She felt the need to come back when he returned and asked him if he wanted anything else…..

Okay I let that slide… that wasn’t the part that made me wanna snatch her ugly ass wig!

This next thing I am about to tell you is what made me want to go all Love and Hip hop on that ass! 

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Creative Writing Feature: 3 Word Short Story!

(All I thought as I reread this was WHAT WAS I THINKING!! THAT COULD HAVE FLOWED BETTER!!!) (Also it is a lil creepy that I am 27 posting this story, character is 27…I was having a girl and so is the character! Only positive is I am still with my bae, we broke up a few times but that was prior to baby…..

And now as I reread this story I have lost my little girl, but you guys can read that post.) 

This post was written in my Write Like A Woman class at ISU. It was so hard to write a 3 word sentence! 

 

(Written: 12/1/13) 

           Sex too good. Don’t use protection. Bought First Response. Have to pee. Pee on stick. Oh no Pregnant! Damn I’m stupid. How could I? It’s his fault. He manipulates me. Says sweet things. Oh you’re sexy. Come join me. Bed too cold. I need you. I can’t resist. Under the covers. His hands smooth. Hot, lustful intentions. Damn….not again! Someone is knocking. Ugh read…sign. Do NOT disturb. We are busy. Come back later. I keep screaming. Oh….Guilty pleasures. He screams Becca! What the fuck? I am Stephanie.

Who is she? I push him. He rolls off. I get up. Shit, really Matt? You damn cheater! I’ve had enough. I’m getting dressed. Red dress on. Slips on heels. He smacks me. I kick him. He punches me. Ouch that hurts! Arm turns purple. I bite him. Scratch his throat. Then I run. He trips me. Kneel…shoe…off. I’ve got aim. Hit his head. He is raging. Walks toward me. He’s standing there. I’m crying again. Very mixed emotions. He starts crying. This doesn’t work. I’ve gotta go. The knocking stopped. It was her. It must be. Where’d she go? Purse in hand. He is shouting. Baby don’t go. She means nothing. Same old story. Write a book. I’m so done.

            Walking home alone. Fuming with thoughts. Emotions running wild. Tears falling nonstop. Grown adults fighting. Who does that?  I hate him. I’m freaking 27. Baby on board. I’ll raise him. Or maybe her. Hopefully not both. I’m against abortion. Time heals all. Don’t have time. I’m so confused. What’d I do? Thought we’d last. Guess imma fool. He played me. Really Becca though? She sounds familiar. Ohmygod. Please God no. Don’t tell me. Becca from school. In my class. That conniving bitch. She’s so fake.  He’s all hers. I’m so done. I’m moving on. Dead beat father.

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Why Can’t I Just Run Away!?

I’m a runner.

Been running my whole life.

Just realized this in a discussion with my bf.

I can never sit still because I never had a moment to breathe.

I was the girl that ran away from home at age 15.

I was the girl that ran away from my mother’s constant anger at me but hanging with friends or my grandma.

I was the teenager sick and tired of her mother yelling at her because she felt like I am her since I look like her.

Running away became a habit………

I ran away from the pain and suffering of being a rape victim.

Ran away from the exes that cheated on me and didn’t love me. Continue reading

I Did Not Consent!!!

***This post was inspired by a show called The Quad on BET. Specifically Episode 8. As well as my bf stating that a woman shouldn’t dress in short skirts and dresses to escape rape….***

Why is it that someone who NEVER experienced RAPE always has something to say???!

It’s one thing to be empathetic, definitely sympathetic!

But to open your mouth and say something so absurd that makes you look disgusting!

If you have not experienced RAPE then you should be careful what you say!

You’re not even expressing hurt or pain about the situation but is yet DEFENDING the situation over a piece of fuckin’ clothing?!

Men in 2017 really got their heads screwed up!!!

The older men, really got stubborn ways of looking at life….well SOME.

RAPE IS:

“unlawful sexual intercourse or any other sexual penetration of the vagina, anus, or mouth of another person, with or without force, by a sex organ, other body part, or foreign object, WITHOUT the consent of the victim.” – via Dictionary.com 

RAPE IS NOT:

Unlawful sexual intercourse or any other sexual penetration BASED ON THE TYPE OF CLOTHING one wears without the consent of the said victim…. Continue reading

How Can You Think in a Generation of Social Media!?

It is hard growing up in a fast advancing generation when you grew up in a world that was slow. I’m talking about the childhood where you went outside and socialized with your so called friends.

I remember when I was in my early years, I was always outside. I learned how to ride a bike, how to roller skate, how to play tag, Red light-green light-one two three, Red Rover, and many more fun games.

As I moved to a new neighborhood by the age of 13, I met new friends. I played the same games but I also learned to just sit on the stoop and get to know these “friends” a little better.

As girls, we would play double dutch.

As one of the boys, we sit and chill on the stoop and talk about nothing.

I was a tomboy. I never really hung out with girls.

I dressed like one of course (a girl that is), but just didn’t really like hanging with girls.

Girls are the shadiest of all.

But anywho….

Yeah I had a cellphone at the age of 13. But I only texted one friend.

When I started High School, I became more in tune with myself. I learned a few things about myself along the way. I learned how to make more friends.

I learned how to separate my school friends from my around my hood friends.

They never clashed.

I had an AOL account. I used AIM, Myspace, and Sconex.

AIM was cool because I got to talk to friends instantly….helloooo instant message! Continue reading

When Are You Going to Have MY Back?!!

I never have nobody back, they say.

But half the people that complain never have mine.

I defend other people’s honors, values, when expected..

Who does it for me?

I’m too nice to people.

I’m quiet because I always get the short end of the stick.

I’m never benefited in return yet I always seem to be the guilty one.

Most best friends are always like call me if you need me but when I do, they half ass ignore me!

When they call, I’m all ears.

But I don’t have no one’s back, they say.

I make people laugh, I stop them from crying….

But who is doing the same for me?

Who is making me laugh, stopping my tears?
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Must You Be So Negative?!

Why do people with negative energy put negative thoughts in one’s mind? Why can’t things be positive and everything flows just fine. One can’t bask in another’s happiness because they are unhappy themselves.

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Why must people always assume the worst because they live life differently than you do. One must not know how to take chances because immediately in their minds they start to categorize every action someone does as a way to bring people down.

This is why double standards exist….because society creates negative energy….

“Men are dogs, women are better liars
Women are better cheaters, men suck at it because they make it obvious….
Men are the money makers, bread winners, etc <because society makes it that way>
Women are the care takers/nurturers
If he looks at another female, it’s cool to him but let her look at another male and he immediately has trust issues”

I could keep going but you get it….

Society changes the way we perceive things, the way we are…

Negative energy, negative people are those who aren’t satisfied in life….they need someone who is happy to throw some of their “power” on to so that they can feel a little better.

Insecure? Definitely!

Most of them are single and lonely.

Habits of another leads to others being negative.

When you 100% trust anyone…such as your mate, best friend, co workers, transit riders, etc…the trust can easily be taken away all by a simple sentence or action of another

IF you feed into it.

I try not to feed into that mess anymore. I let people speak their opinions and leave it alone.

Nope you’re not going to cloud my judgment because you feel a type of way…

I won’t fall off the cloud I’m on up high because you raised your devil horns

I won’t become an insecure woman I used to be because you fear alllll the wrong things happening in 2016.

These same negative people smile in your face as if nothing happened. SMH

Stay away from negative people y’all. They can burn you worse than a fire.

I’m a positive person living in a backwards world in NYC….

Know anyone that tried to snatch your happiness away? Past or present…
Have you witnessed it happen to someone before? How did/does it make you feel?

Thoughts on negative energy/people? Even if you are one of the negative people 😛  

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