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Brian Calloway turns 34 in Played Him Twice

He has [3] brothers and they are family men, married with kids. They all want him to be apart of the life, leave the bachelor life in the past. They are all close knit, hang out when their lives aren’t so hectic, they’ll fly state to state. 

When Brian isn’t working or working out, he usually sits home and has a drink or 2. He may occasionally read a book, and watch sports. 

He has BDE (Big Dick Energy). You can tell by how the ladies can’t stay away from him 😉.

Brian was never into settling down as all his exes just weren’t the one. So when his father passed away, he put all his focus into getting his degree in Business and opening Ace’s Clothing Store in LA. He recently opened a new store in NYC. 

In NYC, he’s all work, no play. Brian stays fit by making the gym a priority. He runs into a fine, entrepreneur woman, which puts him back into the casual sex atmosphere. 

As Brian’s getting older, he wants a wife and kids. Focusing on the grand opening of his NYC location puts the woman of his dreams right in front of him after he walks through strifes of store conflict and getting caught between the sisters.

See if Brian has a happy ending in the telling of his story! 

This is one Love Triangle you don’t want to miss! Coming soon! July 21 😉

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Cherry is 28 and is a yoga instructor. She hosts small classes at the gym then workout daily. Her main goal in her career is to expand into her own studio. 

She’s vibrant, fun, playful and into the DTF dynamic. She’s only dated one man and left him over differences. 

In Played Him Twice, She’s one of Brian’s play things. She lives in the same hotel as him and happily shows up when he calls. Eventually she will find her own place as well, this is a temporary stay while she gets her life in order. 

Cherry loves to eat, drink, party and hang with her sissy Cassie. They been close knit since kids. Their mother and father made sure they looked after each other always. Cherry and Cassandra has a younger brother, Randall. He’s briefly mentioned but he will be more featured in book 2. (Yes a sequel is being written!!) 

Follow her spicy journey with Brian in the book coming July 21, 2022! 

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Cassandra is 32 years old. Coming in as the oldest, she feels it’s her priority to look after her siblings. Cherry is her best friend. How many girls are lucky to have a sister?!

 Cassie is the opposite of Cherry. While she don’t mind partying often and having some drinks, she be on the hustle. As stated in the novel, she loves to read books and her bigger goals is to become a family woman. 

Cassie has dated in the past, but she don’t have sex with just anyone. However, she’s gave for receiving some Head! 😉

Cassie has 2 jobs, working at the AMC theater and working in the bar as a hot bartender. 

How does she meet Brian? He purposely stops by the movie theater to watch a movie! Brian works hard to get to know her (and Cherry). Cassie doesn’t give it so easily, so how does she stick around? 

 That’s all y’all get. Haha 

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She’s a key member in Brian’s rendezvous. Not only sexually, but she helped him find a condo that’s right for him as well!

She’s been in real estate since right out of college. She’s family oriented and adores her parents so much. She has an older brother, Mason. 

When she isn’t working, she’s soaking in the tub, watching Netflix. She also enjoys a Girls Night Out! She’s optimistic and an all around girl, enthusiastic as she is enjoying life. 

Stacy loves long walks as apart of her workout, she always dreamed about meeting her husband on a hike trail. For now tho, she’s single and ready to get it on for fun 😊.

Stacy’s character devlops not only in Played Him Twice, but also in the sequel. 😉

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Joe is a Brian’s partner. LA business partners and now NY partners. He has his degree in Business management. 

Joe is blunt, chill, a hustler and a husband to Melissa. He’s very loyal in his marriage and wants the same for Brian. You can see how he loves Melissa as she is a no mess, no stress woman herself. 

He’s the one Brian trusts when it comes to relationship advice. Joe always carried that wisdom spirit ever since he was a child. He learned his own lessons along the way especially being married. 

When Joe isn’t working, he’s drinking, watching movies, and hanging with his family. 

Brian enjoys beating Brian in NBA, Pacman & Mario. They just don’t let games be their overall focus. 

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Melissa is Joe’s wife and soon business affiliate. She proves to Brian that she’s able to run the NY office while he is in LA. It took her a while to get there. 

With Joe’s trust and her marketing degree, it came with lots of experience and proof in sales. 

Melissa loves to work, and in her free time she enjoys her pajamas, wine and reality shows. Her homegirls are her venting space when she’s not working. 

She wants the best for Brian too. He’s already successful, he just needs a good woman by his side. 

THE END

***Book debuts July 21, 2022!

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Chapter 1 Sneak Peek – Played Him Twice

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© Eliza Rose

©ShadeButNoShade22

CHAPTER ONE

Brian liked to fuck. He always picked up the baddest chicks. Sex made him think clearer. He wouldn’t call himself a nympho, but he was a freak. While in NY to open his new clothing store, strictly business, he rented a room up at the Hyatt hotel until everything was set and stone. Then he would maybe stay longer. One day at the gym, he met this sexy, determined, sweaty woman whose physique showed she worked out all the time.

Her name was Cherry. She had been doing stretches, preparing to jog around the track. He noticed her staring from across the room. It practically burned a hole in his cheek. Her hair was in a bun, when she worked out and she let it elongate when she was done. A move that felt like showing off. Her chestnut brown hair, waved as she then wrinkled her hands in it and tossed it into a ponytail.

After a few days, he mustered up the guts to approach her. It was pretty easy to get what he wanted. As soon as he introduced himself, she was like putty in his hands. Cherry’s hazel eyes, burned through his soft brown eyes as she gave him her number. She was memorized and felt special seeing as a man wanted her all sweaty and out of breath. Brian wanted to see what was up with her. Her body was looking right in them yoga pants.

He told her, “So I’ll see you tonight?”

She blushed. Then she said, “Maybe. If I’m still up.”

She knew damn well, she was gonna be showered and ready for him. It was only 11 a.m. right now. She tried making small talk, which Brian liked. But when she mentioned her sister works at the movie theater on 3rd Ave, he made a mental note to stop by the theater. He had a plan in mind and instantly wanted to put it in place.

After a few more bench presses, he got up and walked out. He headed to the hotel room to shower. Brian’s only visiting NY for a month while his clothing business expands. He just landed yesterday. His plan included renting out a condo, once his partners tell him the store is a go.

In the shower, he couldn’t help but think about Cherry. He hoped she come through tonight. In his mental rolodex, he thought about the perfect outfit to put on, as he is about to head out to see a movie to kill time.

Everyone keep asking Brian why he is single. The truth is, he’s not a man up for commitment. His last girl was back in college, and she broke up with him to be with a football player set to make it to the NFL. It’s all good, because he wasn’t faithful to her neither. He had a sorority chick in his room every weekend. Back then he was fit, steady 6 pack, 6 ft tall, cornrows and a thin, small goatee and fresh fits. Now he has some muscles, thanks to the workouts, a nice beard and waves on his hair. He felt like he had to change it up when he graduated and began work as an intern for Prada.

After a good 30 minutes, Brian got out the shower, dried off and got dressed. He chose a red Gucci shirt and black robin jeans with the red, black, and white Jordan 11’s. He got dressed and sprayed some Guilty by Gucci. One look in the mirror and he was. on his way out.

He wondered if Crystal looked anything like her sister? He’s thinking hard as the Uber arrives. Brian’s headed to AMC Theater 7 to see the Joker movie.

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This fine, beautiful caramel skinned, brown eyed girl was at the ticket booth handing out tickets to customers and ended it with, “enjoy your movie.”

She did a hair swipe after the last customer passed. Her curls were a soft pink, must be trying to stand out. Brian was behind one more person, wishing they would hurry the fuck up.

The universe heard his complaints as he was up next. He made sure to get up close and personal to Crystal. Just had to play the right cards here.

She looked up at him, while in her seat. A slight pause, she smirked. “Hello, welcome to AMC. What movie would you like to see today?”

Brian licked his lips. “Hey beautiful. Your tag says Crystal. I’ll call you that. I’m here to see the Joker movie. Have you seen it?”

She grinned. “Yeah actually, it’s pretty dope.” She swings a piece of hair behind her ear as it fell. Also, a clear sign that she’s feeling ya boy.

“Aight. Before I go in, I’d love to get to know you. Are you single?” Brian said, turning his head to wave the person behind him to the next employee.

Crystal said, “I don’t usually do this but um…since you fine and all, I’ll give you my number so I can finish working.” She wrote it down. “Yes, I’m single. For three years now.”

Brian took her number and put it in his pocket. “Aight cool. Imma definitely hit you up. Stay by your phone love. Enjoy your night.” He winked then walked away.

The ticket attendant by the podium to enter the theater took his ticket, ripped half off and put it in the box, then gave Brian his copy. “Theater 4 please. Enjoy.”

Brian said, “Thank you,” then went to the concession stand to get a medium popcorn and a large Coke. The line was short, so he had enough time to get seated for previews. He picked a seat in the back, toward the middle. Pulling his phone out, he clicked the power button to release any notifications. No one texted. He punched Crystal’s number in his phone as well as Cherry’s. Afterwards his phone went on silent, and the lights went dim. Previews were the best part.

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After two hours, the movie ended. Brian had to take a leak. When he was done using the bathroom, he checked to see if Crystal was still working. She was still sitting at the booth, wiping counters down, so he went to let her know he enjoyed the movie. A plan for her to mark his face one more time before he left.

Crystal smiled. She blushed. Her co-workers pretended to be busy. They must have known it was time for her to have a new spark in life. He didn’t play her too close though. So, he said to her, “If you gettin’ off I could walk you to your car…or the bus, the train…”

She said, “I don’t get off until 1 a.m. Have to help clean.”

Brian said, “No biggie. You get home safe. I holla at you.”

“Thank you though.” She smiled at him.

He winked at her. Then turned around and walked out the door.

He called a cab. He had to get the rental car tomorrow. He would only be out here for two months to get Ace’s Outwear branding in the state. The store’s named after his father. Ace was also one of the powerful cards in a deck and a strong symbol in life.

When the cab arrived, he confirmed the destination and checked his phone. Brian texted

Cherry. How is home after workout? Did you sweat waiting for me to text you?

Brian scrolled his email while he waited for a response. While he enjoyed the sights, he thought about ordering food when he returned to the Hyatt hotel. His phone vibrated; text message showed it was Cherry responding.

Lol emoji. Is this Brian? Stop being so silly. I was waiting for you to text me but I’m not sweating you. I mean look who texted me. Haha

So she’s sarcastic and a fronter. Interesting. He made it to the hotel in 10 minutes and tipped the driver before heading up to his room, 404. Brian stripped down to his boxers and wife beater. He clicked on the TV to put on some football and poured a shot of Cîroc. He sat down and texted,

Iight iight. I was at the movies anyway. I went to see Joker.

She must have time because she hit him back quickly.

You didn’t happen to go to the one my sister works at, did you? If so, did you see her?

He stared at the phone for a second, debated if he should lie or tell the truth. The chat bubble was pending blue. He decided not to play the cards he was dealt. Fuck it. Brian wanted to see her reaction to this…

Nah boo. I went to Regal. AMC was packed. I’m home now. He sipped his vodka, feeling triumphant.

There was a Packers VS the Raiders game on, and Brian was barely paying attention. His mind was swamped on how he was going to tap that booty when Cherry come over. When she was doing yoga poses and squats, the apple shape made Brian want to pounce on her. He tried to come off as respectful as possible so that he could get her number. Brian confirmed next time he go to the gym, they were gonna flirt a little more.

She replied,

Ok cool. Some me time is healthy. I’m watching TV and drinking wine.

Brian smirked.

Too bad it’s not together. Wink emoji. Say, I’m having a 90’s party in a couple weeks, you’re more than welcome to come. I’ll text you the address the day before. Invite your friends, sister, whoever.

She replied,

I just met you. You may be rich, a strategic businessman but…. sign me up! I’m coming with my girls. I’ll see if Crystal wants to come, she usually hates theme parties.

Checkmate. That will be his time to double dip at the same time. He replied,

I’m all business with some pleasure baby. You would see if you stopped by. My room number is 404. Think about it and just come through.

Brian got up and poured himself a double shot. His phone started ringing, it was his business partner, Joe. They have a location out in LA, so moving and opening on in NY is a big deal. LA opened last year and did pretty well, the store sells shoes, suits, jeans, shirts, button-ups, and shorts. They’re high-end retail and Joe has his own collection line selling in-store as well. Brian wanted to make a name for myself so when he has kids, they would already be good. Brian was about to hit 34, hence the party coming up.

He gulped the rest of the Cîroc, turned the TV to Soul Food and kicked back. Sometime after resting my feet up, he felt sleepy.

Brian woke up to the sound of knocking at his door. Not too pressed on random visitors, he jumped up quickly. Defense mode was always activated first, his dad showed him karate moves just in case he needed it. The time on his phone said 9p.m. Shit. He couldn’t believe he slept that long. Brian wiped the drool off his face, straightened his clothes and said, “Hold on a minute!” He tapped his face to wake up. He opened the door in a haste, and beauty stood before him.

“Come on in…” he said, watching her fine ass walk in wearing a tub top and booty shorts with a tie string, and furry slippers on her feet.

She was staggering. “Hey. I’m here! Let’s have sex. Order pizza? BOTH!”

Brian laughed. She looked like she had too much to drink. Cherry must be ready to have her cherry popped. Not to sound cocky, but women don’t turn him down. Even in college, Brian had a trail of women following him daily. Some would bring meal plans to his dorm room. His charm and swag kept the ladies coming. So, he wasn’t surprised he was able to get Cherry and Crystal numbers in one day. Do sisters not talk? He wondered how they described him to one another…

She was snapping her fingers in the air. “Um hello! Earth to Brian! You back? You looked lost for a minute…I am going to order Papa John’s.”

Brian snapped out of his reverie. “Sounds good. Don’t order too much, we’re hungry, not starving. You also been drinking…watch your carbs.”

She slapped his leg. A little higher and clothes would have been flying off. “I only drank one whole bottle. I feel gooood, but I’m able to manage. Back to the gym in the morning. Are you going to coach me?”

Her smile came off flirty. Like she was throwing hints and he was grabbing each one. Brian locked the door and poured two shots of Cîroc, one for her and one for himself. They sat on the couch and got to know each other. They clinked glasses and straight shoot the alcohol. She made a face as if she couldn’t handle it but feigned bold.

She said, “Well I’m 28, I work as a Yoga Instructor, I’m also a blogger. I like to read, draw, skate and party. I’m also not a virgin. Shit. Your turn…” she grazed his arm.

Brian bit his bottom lip. “Cool. You already know I work out; I’ll be 34 in 2 weeks. I’m in business with my best friend Joe, we own a clothing company, expanding actually so I’m only out here for a brief visit then leaving in a couple months to go back to LA. I watch love movies, action, crime, and read fiction from time to time.”

She kissed him. Her lips were warm, the body heat radiating onto his as he processed what was happening. Brian put his arms around her waist. She straddled him. She worked her mouth on his, forming sexy, tongue kissing as she wrapped her arms around him. Cherry rocked back and forth, making his member go UP. They were interrupted by the fuckin’ door.

“PIZZA!”

She climbed off of Brian and said, “I should get that.”

Brian dug in his pocket for cash, handed it to her and said, “Here. This should cover it with a tip.”

She smiled. “Thank you.” Cherry retrieves the pizza, pays the man and closes the door with her feet.

He said, “Girl if you don’t put that damn box down and come finish what you started.”

She laughed, as she placed the pizza down on the kitchen counter, she whined, “But I’m hungry…”

Brian got up and walked over to her. He whispered in her ear, “I rather eat you up first, before filling up on cheese which leads to gassy asses.”

She squirmed and opened the pizza box. She took a quick bite before he grabbed her hands and lead her to putting the pizza down. Brian guided his hands down her body, loosening her shorts string.

Before continuing, he looked up and said, “Cherry. You do want this right?”

She pushed his head down and in toward her clit. “Yes Brian. I told you at the door. Come on now.”

She smelled like summer, very refreshing. He pulled her shorts off, no panties underneath. One lick of her pussy and he was all in. Brian licked her like he was starving.

She was moaning, and it was turning Brian on. When she came, he lifted her up and carried her to the bedroom. He laid her on the bed and put his dick inside of her. The rhythmic thrusts were in sync, he pounded faster and faster until he busted a nut. Once done, he grabbed a towel from the bathroom to clean up with, a warm towel for her, and a rag for the bedsheets. She cleaned herself, standing up while he got to the sheets. He wiped them then removed them to place new ones on the mattress. Afterwards, she kissed him on the cheek.

She walked out the room to finish eating pizza.

“Ohkayyy…” Brian said, thinking about what to do next.

He made up the bed, washed his hands and went back to the living room to find Cherry fully dressed and drinking. She said, “That was good Brian.”

“The pizza orrr…”

She interrupted, “Sex silly. The pizza hit the spot, but so did you.” She checked her phone and responded to a message then stood up.

Brian grabbed a slice and ate standing up. He gave her a head nod.

Cherry said, “I would love to stay and chat, but I’ve gotta go.” She grabbed the box of pizza and right before she left for good, he snagged two more slices.

When did she get a little less tipsy and more formal?

Brian shook off the question, he was just glad she was coherent enough to leave.

“Ok. When will I see you again?”

“You have my number B. Use it. This won’t be the last of me.” She said, grabbing the latch on the door.

“Gotcha,” he said as he watched the door close.

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Poems from Planting the Seeds that Blossomed Me

© Eliza Rose

©ShadeButNoShade’22

Marital Muse (Page 49)

Marital Muse

Asked me to be your groom
came in the room with your slip on
And asked if I’m ready for my tasting.
I told you I’d be happy to lay my lips
Upon your feasting buffet.

I ate until I became full
Off your main entrees,
My favorite, the ganache
Your nectar so sweet, so pure.
I washed it down with the signature cocktail.

You opened the flood gates,
your grand entrance
we made our watermark
Easing to the altar
As I embarked on your sweetheart neckline.

I glanced at the officiant
it had the red button
Pressed record as we committed
With our guests in view
Watching over you.

After it’s all over,
You request in house catering
I make sure to RSVP.
my mind is on round 2
I want to dwell on you.

The dessert is now catered,
Chocolate covered strawberries,
white mocha fondue.
We laugh, we cry, we catch our breath.

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Take Me (Page 27)

Take Me

Take me to your paradise,

Take me to your home.

Take me to your kingdom,

So, I can sit on your throne.

Take me to your heart,

Take me to your soul.

Take me to that part,

That has that special goal.

Take me to your happiness,

That brings out your smile.

I want to be with you for a long time,

Not just for a little while.

You took my breath away,

To prove you’re here to stay,

So why not take me to our future,

Where our life holds.

I hope I am not too bold.

Take me to love,

Take me to pleasure.

Take me everywhere,

Our hearts can measure.

Take me to life,

Take me to death.

In the coffin,

Holding hands because,

You chose to take me everywhere.

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Chapter 1: Crisis of Lust

Psssstttt! Come check out this sneak peek!

© Eliza Rose

©ShadeButNoShade22

JACKSON

I can’t stop thinking about the day I had Clare’s legs in the air on my bed and she was screaming my name. As I drive to meet her at the Starbucks on 42nd street, I rehash the sweet times we shared as I mentally set up to change her last name. I am driving the speed limit, watching the other cars pass me to get to the highway. Once I am on the FDR drive, I increase the speed and lower my window. I allow the fresh air in as I indulge in the mental memory of my baby. She took her time letting me in her mind and once we were both ready for sex, I just knew it would be magical. After getting to know each other, she finally pegged for me to make love to her. I couldn’t wait to kiss her delicate skin, feel the electricity between us ignite as we shared a deeper connection.

I knew from our conversations that our love was more than mental and spiritual. I aimed to please her, taste her, feel her, and protect her. Man, her body had me memorized, she was so fine naked. It was hard to restrain myself in my entirety as I didn’t want to just be seen as a freak in the sheets. She soon learned that I am more than just a pretty face and a businessperson. I made love to Clare with my eyes and with my tongue.

The way she cooed when I gave her oral, brought me to pure lust, made my dick hard. I pumped her with the essence that I was her person. Just thinking about the first time we had sex, is sending me to a place where I can’t even fuck her right now. Not in public.

Although, we would be kinky if we did. Shit, there has been many times I fantasized about snatching my bookworm babe from behind the counter at B&N and sliding up in her panties. Somewhere along my daydreaming on the road, I am honked at, and the driver stuck up his middle finger because he signaled to pass me, but I hadn’t noticed. I am in the middle lane, so I drive a couple more minutes to lead to the right because Exit 9 is approaching. I get to my destination in five minutes, but parking is nowhere in sight, so I drive around toward 40th street.

It’s all good though, I could use the walk. On the way there, I consider texting Clare, but I don’t want to ruin the surprise. Work has been keeping me busy, I know she would be outside counting the minutes until I arrive. I missed her just as much I hoped she missed me. I love her to death, and while I have loved in the past, she feels like the one.

As I stand out front of Starbucks, the reflection of my nerves looks back. Today is the day I make that life changing move. I gather my thoughts, having prepped for the words to impress Clare. I even looked up some context from her favorite books to add to my proposal. I straighten my tie and tighten my suit jacket. It’s a little chilly but expected as it is September. I look at the time on my watch. It’s 8:00p.m. The 42nd streetlights shine around me as I spin for affect. I pause at its beauty, the movie theater sign, McDonald’s huge display, and the Hello Kitty store. This is our memorabilia, and this is the perfect night for her to say yes.

We had plenty date nights at this Starbucks location, 6 years ago we made it our permanent territory. Every year we frequent here, the minute we walk in the employees know our orders. This strip is legendary, even over on 7th avenue, visiting Hershey store and M&M’s store as if we are tourists and not residents, constantly giggling and pointing at things we always see. Clare gets me every time because I tend to end up buying her all the things she asks for, from candy, mugs, chocolate, to sweatshirts. She owns all the M&M’s sweatshirt colors, in which they should give her a gig to advertise. She just had to “get one in every color.” I have a feeling she would wear one tonight because they are her “go to.”

I regain my confidence, turning back to the store, reminding myself that I put in enough effort to get this far. An eager customer brushes past me and he says, “Stop staring and push on! You look great by the way.” His voice was raspy and young. I turn to him as he walks through the doors. He’s right. I peek inside to find my love. Clare’s in the corner, engrossed in her book, “The Kat Trap” by Cairo. She was always into those erotica books. I take a deep breath, hoping tonight will go as planned.

She is wearing the yellow M&M‘s sweatshirt with gray leggings and her tan UGG boots. I wanted to match her style, but work took over and I chose to come straight here. Her hair is in a long ponytail with her bangs slightly above her glasses. She flips the page as she sips her iced medium vanilla soy with whip cream latte. With Clare working in Barnes and Noble as the Head Cashier, she taught me a thing or two about drink labels as she also helps in the café. I take a few steps back, as I ponder entering the coffee shop. My palms are sweaty, and my heart is beating rapidly.

I take the ring out my pocket and admire it. It’s a nice 5 carat rose gold ring that her mother helped me pick out. WOW. She’s going to love this! Can’t wait to make her the Mrs. Miller. I kiss the box and put it away, ready to face Clare. I’m sure she is thinking about what’s taking me so long.

The smell of coffee beans is in the air and it’s welcoming. I hear a barista shout, “Clare! Iced medium Caramel Frappuccino and Coffee cake.”

I see she ordered my usual. Always on point with the details.

“Hey Babe,” I said as I placed a kiss upon her vanilla latte lips. She smiles quickly after.

“Hey hun,” Clare looks at me with a smirk. I can tell her mind is going.

“Everything alright?” I ask and take a sip of my frap.

“Yes…” she hesitates and stares at me.

“Tell me how was your day?” I start off the conversation.

“It was good. Work was hectic as usual. But I sold the most memberships for the month. How about you?” She said as her eyes wander around the room.

Why is she so distracted? She is usually more focused than I am.

“Oh it was cool. Had to help the boss with his computer and installed new ones around the office. You know, the usual. I got dragged around the office and did some trips around the city. I think I might be getting promoted,” I said as I notice a young couple sit beside us, laughing and gazing at each other. The guy wipes the girls crumbs off her mouth with a napkin.

“Mmhmm, good to hear love,” she says but not with enough excitement for my liking. I reach in to kiss Clare. A sweet, subtle kiss.

She reaches for my hands. “You see this couple? That was really sweet. Must be nice to have someone do something nice for you just cause.”

Clare takes a deep breath. Her thoughts take over.“I wish you look at me that way. You don’t even clean my face like our neighbor here did to his woman. The only time you admire me is inside the house. Why can’t I feel cute and appreciated more…?”

I am baffled. What is she trying to say?! “Clare…what’s s going on? I see you are fallinginto a mind trap. Just what exactly are you getting at?” There’s a pique in my voice. The lovely couple sneaks a glance at me.

“Sit down. Please Clare.” I reach out for her hand.

She snatches her hand back, obliged and rolled her eyes. “What could you possibly say to me Jackson to fix things?”

“Oh, please Clare! Don’t act like you haven’t been all cooped up at work, always picking up hours. You only come to my house when you feel it’s necessary for you.”

“So, you telling me I don’t come to cuddle you at your convenience?! Don’t play with me Jackson. I’m basically there every damn day and when I can’t be there it is because of our work schedules. How dare you sit here and fix your mouth to say when it’s necessary for me! How about when it is necessary for you!” Clare pushes her seat back.

“Clare. Clare. Clare. You know how important my work is. I’m sorry my job is currently a priority.”

“And I’m not?!”

“I didn’t say that babe. Relax. Let’s take a breath.” I didn’t know Clare felt this way. Had I been out of touch this whole time?

I can tell she is holding back tears.

“Jackson. I love you. I can’t believe… I come… second to a phone, second to work, second to your mother, second to everything in your life—”

I interrupt. “Clare. Just don’t do this please. I love you. Not here.” My eyes start to water.

“Jackson, you just don’t understand!” she says. She buries her face in her hands as her shoulders shake.

I try to grab her hand, but she pulls away. “Baby, help me understand, please…I have something to say to you…”

“I’m sick of it!” she said blinking away tears and ruining her mascara. She grabbed her coffee, and I knew exactly what is coming next.

Everything happens quickly, I could see every muscle on her face used to look at me both angry and jealous. Her eyes wet like glass as the mascara runs down her cheeks. She throws the last of her drink on me. Caught up, I toss the ring on the table, bawling, and storm out before I am the one that gets escorted out.

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To Read more check out “Crisis of Lust,” now available on Amazon!!!

If you’re lucky Chap 2 may be added soon 😉

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Shade is a Mom!

Sorry for the disappearance since March. I was pregnant and hormonal and going through ups and downs with my bf…

I had a high risk pregnancy until about 30 weeks and let me say that I worried about everythaaannngggg!!

When I didn’t feel the same movements from baby as usual I went to the hospital a week before my scheduled c-section. He was fine and I was actually contracting without knowing or feeling it!

Now I may or may not have mentioned it, but I had a daughter born 22 weeks Sept 4th 2017 and she passed Sept 11th 2017….emergency c section.

I had major baby fever after and wanted a baby to hold so I wanted to try again and that I did!

My handsome baby boy was born June 21st at 4:33pm. So precious ❤ (Pics maybe laterrr)

He is 4 months now and a mommy’s boy!!! I LOOOVVVEEEE IT!!! It’s part from breastfeeding, part from holding him all the time which is why he is all up on mommy! Hehe

The best times are the snuggles! We started with tummy cuddles and now we co-sleep. I missed placing him on my tummy and falling asleep like that at 1st but now co-sleeping is easier!

Dad works and hardly participated but it wasn’t until recently that I make him little by little by going to the store and getting my hair done. BUT he works so I accept it as Im not working right now.

Dad has finally bonded and now our son loves him and cries for him sometimes (but loves me more)

Our relationship has gotten better. We don’t argue, we are understanding each other. I didn’t have much of a sex drive at 1st. I was allll baby & I’m sure my mothers out there can relate. Now it is creepin back slowly and YES I’M ON BIRTH CONTROL! Noneed for another too soon and I like having my body back (just not the boobs, those are his) Everything is falling into place. Maybe it’s the baby 😁.

His name is Junior *nickname* (He’s named after his father)

I am also taking 1 online class at a time at Southern New Hampshire University!! Master’s in English Creative Writing! (I’ll discuss in New Post)

I miss my bloggers soooo much! I’ll try to be more active now that I have energy :P.

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Is This the Toughest Season?!

Why is it that when tax season comes around, it seems a bit stressful?

Lord!

Especially when your mind is as crowded or clouded I should say as mine!

I swear I am only 27 yrs old and I experienced enough stress to last me to 80!!!

My brain is constantly frazzled and fried and I can’t remember daily tasks!

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WTF!

Anywho….

I can’t seem to remember if I kept my w2 from last year or chucked it in spirit of I didn’t need it anymore!

We moved in Nov so I was cleaning all my old paperwork before we moved….

Apart of me feels like I chucked it (and regrets it currently)

and then I also feel like I hid it.

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Are You Too Good To Be Mentioned?!

Who gave men the disciplinal right to try to demand certain things from women???

From “curfews” to budgeting (but you can’t tell them to budget their own money oh no), to cooking & cleaning to many more but my most recent fav….

Telling you NOT to blog about them!!!

Especially when they don’t even READ your blog!!

 

About a month ago I subbed this gov lady in my post cuz her man was pretending to be my man and she “so called researched” and found my blog as a connection to him. Hmm how? If his name isn’t tagged in my posts and the only way you do that is if you have his first and last name which you must have got from ya fake lyin’ ass man and searched fb to get to me as well…… My man found out cuz it was his best friend’s brother…his bestie was talkin’ so much shit about my blog and his ass don’t read it either!

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Challenge Yourself 2018! New Twitter Page!

Idk about anyone else buuuuttttt

I am taking on new challenges for myself this year.

I am going to write my book. So I can call it accomplished and love it when it’s printed!

My goal for THIS WEEK though ….

Is to create Shade But No Shade’s twitter page!!!

Whew!!

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I don’t know why I didn’t create this sooner! I kept thinking about it and forgetting about it all at the same time!

Plus it’s going to be a lot of work simply because I am starting from 2015 posts!!!!

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Get It Girl! Miss PA USA Pageant of 2018!! 

*Updated* Pageant was for 2018! 

The hair. The makeup. The dress. The shoes.
Have you ever wondered if this feels like being crowned prom queen?

Does dress up feel like graduation or better?

I had the luxury of knowing a beautiful contestant of this year’s pageant contest!

She’s been my friend since High school. Can you believe it?! That’s about 15 years if we met Freshman year…can’t really remember lol

She’s also an owner of her very own Notary Public! *Applause* and Attends University of Pittsburgh! She’s doing big things!

I’ve been watching her journey and she’s been so dedicated, it’s a shame she didn’t win!

Does society already know what type of girl they want?

Perhaps so. But let’s not get into politics……

I had the pleasure in asking Ms. Kesselyne Occena a couple of questions, just so you gals and guys can understand the inside scoop of what it’s like being a pageant girl.

Here are the Qs I asked Kesselyne about the pageant:
1. What inspired you to be a contestant ?

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