Life is spiraling out of control

© Eliza Rose

© Shade But No Shade 2022

Somebody spare me more time in a day

Getting my PHD (as mentioned before) and I’m not sure it’s the right thing yet. Just started this course and I have so much going on with my life that it’s just another load.

I’m getting my PHD in Educational Leadership, because I have an end goal. I’m doing one class at a time, hoping to go up to 2 classes by next year summer or fall.

With this, I plan on being Dr. Jennings, PHD, Professor of English at [any University].


(Yes, I watch the Netflix show too!)

But if I start speaking the things I want into existence, maybe it’ll happen.

Like I NEED A BREAK FROM THESE CHILDREN!! I have an almost 2-year-old and a 4-year-old,

Being a stay-at-home mom is a whole ‘nother thing. With NO village, I’m doing this all on my own. Anyways….

This PHD program increases in readings and research and for now, I’m only finding time to write at night because the mintute I try to be productive, I’m needed.

I do my best not to look at what I’m doing to myself. I cannot stop being an author because that’s my dream job! So many stories to produce! So little time!!

My Kindle Vella story is so fun to write and has been the most motivating! I have no idea why. Maybe it’s the jitters after writing a novel. I need to get this quick story out so I can get to something else.

I know as my program gets more intensive, it will be hard to find time to write creatively and submit assignments. I hope within the next month or 2 that I’ll have a full-time job as well because I need more than one job to sustain in this life.

Since I’m early on in this author business, I don’t expect big things yet. It takes a lot to get your name seen. Then I have plans to turn my business into an editing business also, currently working on my website. I enjoy editing.

Proofreading, correcting grammar, syntax.

I have no idea why and yes, I edit my own work….for now. Until I can afford to have someone else do it.

But sometimes, I just don’t want to nothing.

I don’t want to wake up every morning and deal with kids.

I don’t feel like working, writing, promoting.

I just want to hide in a corner or somewhere new and just sleep.


Exhausted, educated and annoyed mama

I’m going to be writing tonight. Maybe school work, may be author stuff.

Check out my Vella story! New episodes every week!

And Purchase Crisis of Lust 2

Crisis of Lust 2: Monica’s Return

Thanks for reading! 


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