You’re Not Worth It!

This one is for anyone that will listen or read…..

The need to cry.

A crying session.

Are women the only ones to schedule a crying moment?

What happens when you can’t take it anymore and become so frustrated.

That’s in your relationship, marriage, your job, life…whatever.

Sometimes you keep everything bottled in because you are sick and tired of explaining your complicated life to those who may or may not be tired of hearing about it.

Or you don’t want to be judged anymore.

Friends are always there for you sure, but some are always going to judge the things you do differently from them.

Now i have never scheduled a cry, but I have seen it in movies and heard many people talk about doing it.

Like how do you seriously schedule a time and date to cry?

Fill me in please.

When I need to let it out, it just happens.

I could be working or at home. At a friend’s….

Sometimes life sucks and that’s all you can do.

I just can’t sit and say “okay Aug 4th at 3pm is when I need to cry.”

Nope.

However I was sitting and thinking about everything I have been through in my life and where I am going.

No I am not where I want to be and that’s okay because they tell you to be patient. I am being veryyyy patient.

But I am not satisfied with where things are right now.

I am on my way to fixing it as I speak! I promise friends! 😀

The other day I was on the train at 4:00 AM heading home from fun adventures of my friend’s birthday and I said holy shit.

What the hell am I doing with my life?

I almost shed a tear on the train because I have so much going on in my head and I don’t want to tell no one about it.

So it’s just me, myself and I.

Well there is one person I do share my opinions with.

Perhaps, make that two.

But you know some things are best kept to yourself.

Right? Another one of those society quotes we live by.

I have had a strand of gray hair and I am still young.

WTF.

Life is stressing me.

But while I was on that very local train, I asked myself why must us woman go through this factor of needing to release.

Crying is a good release, I cannot lie. It’s about the second best release after the “first” one. Haha

It also makes you feel weak though.

I came across this quote and I guess it is true.

I’ve been strong for sooooooooo long. I laugh more than I shed tears because laughter is so much better.

I have experienced a lot of things that only a few people know and understand.

It makes me feel foolish to have gone through some things I could have prevented but as a child no one thinks properly.

The more I age, the more I look back on the lessons I learned and how I can grow from them.

Ever been in a relationship where you feel like you have done more crying than progress or shared happiness?

I have. It’s to the point where I won’t waste my tears anymore.

Things haven’t changed, no matter how long you wait. Things are getting worse no matter how you look at it.

There’s no respect, no gratitude.

Throw in the towel?

The well has run dry…….

All the emotional abuse is unhealthy and I learned I can be better than that.

I don’t have to take that from anybody.

I don’t have to tolerate petty arguments and screaming matches over bullshit.

Grrrrrrrr. Life is too short to waste it.

I’m also not going to sit around and wait around with people that are holding me down with balls and chains.

Even if it doesn’t look that way, it feels that way.

But why does it feel good to cry about such things? I saved myself that day and didn’t let one drop.

Relationships shouldn’t bring tears.

Yet we always have them.

Welp no more sadness for SHE. ME. HER. 

I am going to live my life the way I want to from this day forth.

Remember a man worth crying for doesn’t make you cry.

I almost forgot about that tidbit.

Look at yourself and at life and say

And listen to those songs that turns your mood all the wayyy up!

Wheewwww! I just had to shake that off!

The next time you shed a tear for anything in your life, ask if it’s worth it. 

Friends, do you ever get these moment? Ever wonder why? 

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